5 months!?

Whoa it has been a loooong time since I wrote on this blog. There is a reason. I've been busy busy busy and any chance I get to blog I feel like I owe it to the kids to post on the Beaz so we have a record of their young lives.

Since I had baby #3 I've gone down to part time at my work. Which really sucks money wise but has been such an amazing chance for me to be more involved as a mother. Notice I didn't say a better mother. ;) It's easier for me to be a better and more patient mom when I'm at work missing my kids all day. I can come home from work and be mother of the year for the 3 hours I have with them. Of course laundry was always on the back burner as well as cooking. I've upped my game in those areas now and I've felt much more grounded and I think the kids feel that way too.

But I've really let myself go. It feels like life revolves around nursing and running kids here and there (except for my daily pepsi run.) I think putting your kids first is great, but I have to force myself to do things for me. My hair goes way longer between dye jobs, some days makeup never graces this face, my diet is in the toilet because convenience has become a major priority, I really don't have any shoes or clothes that fit properly anymore. Everything is too big or too small, etc etc etc. I'm a libra for gosh sakes, so you would think I could find some balance!

I guess what I'm trying to say is, I love my new life. I love spending more time with the kids. And my new life is also hard. It's hard financially and it's hard to find some kind of routine. But we'll make it and it's worth it. I am so lucky that this is the "hard" that I'm dealing with right now.